My New Personal Goal

I have never really achieved anything. Never really struggled or overcome obstacles to go after anything. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for the fact that my life has been fairly smooth sailing - despite a few bumps here and there. Things have somehow always aligned themselves and life has worked out just fine. One would argue that 'just fine' is not 'good enough', and I do agree, which is what makes me lazy. There is a difference between 'settling for something' and being lazy. When you 'settle' you tend to regret, there's always some sort of cognitive dissonance. I just go ahead with life and thank God and all my stars for "how easy that was!!".

Its probably the fact that I'm thirty, that's giving me this strong urge to push the boundaries and really achieve something. Something worth writing about. Something I can base a motivational speech on, a story I can share with my kids so they see me as a hero. I have observed that all milestone age years, come with its own set of emotions and drama. At thirty, most people take stock of their life - personal - am I married? single?, family planning - kids/ want to have kids/ never having kids, career - is my designation cool enough, am I earning enough, should I just start my own business, health - so many people around me are dying so young! how come some other women my age just don't get fat! Need to quit drinking/ smoking! Thirty is an important milestone. It sets the stage for the rest of life's drama.

For me, I've realised that I need to dedicate myself to achieve a goal that would benefit me in more ways than one. So, I am committing my self to train for one year, in order to be able to complete a marathon by Jan 2013. In this way - I'll obviously be fitter, stronger and really struggle to achieve my goal. I'm publishing this because I am not going to give it up and from today, I am going to channel my efforts.

To take stock of where I stand with regards to my goal - I have been very sporadic with my fitness efforts over the last ten years. The fact that I was sporty is school is quite irrelevant except for the fact that I know 'how to run'. The maximum distance I have ever run at a stretch (ever!) has been 6 kilometers. The last time I exercised was over 6 months ago. The last time I watched my diet was 4 months ago. I am considerably out of shape - but I'm not fat, I can pass off as a fit thirty year old - nowhere close to a thirty year old hottie though. And last of all - I am flat footed. This poses to be an issue - but can be controlled.

So this is the beginning of my journey. I hope to end this journey here too. With a post of how amazing and exhilarating the whole experience has been. I hope can speak of it to an audience as a motivational story, and most of all I want to stop being lazy, and achieve 'my new personal goal'.